new life is misery

11 months working in health clinic in district region.




and i cannot bare it anymore.


how much i love working in health clinic.
how much i adore giving health campaign and talk.





but still i felt it is not enough

i think  i want more


and with all political working issue, i decided to go back to hospital.
















after 2 weeks here in tertiary center in new department.








i feel so hopeless..
so helpless.
i want to die.












i regret everything.




waking up is nightmare.
i got early morning wake up and unable to sleep


i has tremor before go to work.




























i feel like this is the end.
my end.
and i have no one to help me.





i am alone.
all alone.















someone.
somebody.
help me.
i am living in misery.