Random rant

Life as a doctor when your family is not from medical based.
Life as a doctor when your boyfriend is not from medical based.



I have this tendency to hid inside my shell, block out others from my life and become a single life which no one seems to understand.
I dont know why but it seems like my own space, personal space that I wont allow others to come. It has a door which only me holding the key.





I rarely told my family what happened i my life, work place. As I dont feel the need to tell them, because I dont think at the end they will understand.

I did the same with my boyfriend (read: fiancée). I block him out of my working place. I dont feel comfortable telling him everything that happened in my life, my work place whether it's good or it's bad or it's sad.

Mainly because I wont to avoid question. But deep down I feel he wont undestamd and I dont want him to understand. I hate lots of question from him, even I know he has good intention

I am selfish, I know.





But my work life is a part of me that I dont want people close to me to see.



It is bad? Even I dont understand myself..