What happened during Eid 2013

So,

2 days later, have the gut to write this.

Eid 2013;

where it all started,

well basically, I got 2 weeks of holiday a.k.a study week for my final MBBS Pro exam,

so, i only went home for 4-5 days? (can't really recalled it right now)

so, during that 2 weeks holiday, me and him (now, my fiancee) discussed on whether we should take the next step, i.e. formally introduced ourselves to both side of family.

Truth to be told, I've been to his village once, during last year Eid, met some of his family members, well he never really introduce me as his loved one during that visit, but as what he told me, they knows, because he never bring other girl or mention bout other girl except me.

But for me, it is not the same. He had been to my house during eid, i don't know, 4-5 times already, with some of his guy friends. Being a popular girl, heck, being a very talkative, social human being, my guy-friend had come to my house like, since i am 8-9 years old, and so, for my family, he just owh-my-other-guy-friend-same-with-others, since erm i dont really well, never introduce him as my boyfriend.

well, why is that?

because i believe, the first guy that i introduce (hey mom, dad, this is my boyfriend/soon-to-be-husband) is the one who i am sure, will be my husband and soulmate.

yes, i am an oldie. that is my belief.

because i dont want to be a girl who brought different guy each year and introduce him as my boyfriend.

NOT IN A MILLION YEARS.

so, back to Eid 2013, day two, which was on 9/8/13;

our plan:

-he come with his family

-formally introduce ourselves to both side

-and hoping this meeting somehow will lead to somewhere positive for both of us.

what really happened:

-he came with his family and siblings

-my grandma and uncle was there too, because my grandma want to meet his family and well, my uncle drove my grandma to my house
-his family came late, it was supposed to be around 3pm, but they end up came at 4.30pm++
-during the meeting/gathering/whatever you wanna call it, suddenly his mom talk about us two (me and him) tying the knot, which of course unexpectedly for me, and my family.
-his mom want me and him to be engaged preferably before end of October since his sisters need to go back to Egypt to continue their studies.
-my dad said he will think about it, and that was all of it.


Now,  you guys, well myself also at that moment , was like, WTH? How can he?? without discussing this with me? I am unprepared, my family unprepared, I am doomed!
I was furious, really really furious I dont know how to explain it but i hate, really hate unprepared, not proper plan, especially when it involves myself and my future.

he was thinking I am having coldfeet, since i got what i want, but i was thinking  we are not yet ready for this. both of us are unemployed! what he was thinking?

plus, i had big exam coming up!!

so i asked my family to onhold all of this, wait for me to face my exam first.

i went back to Kuantan, half halfheartedly study, because deep down i dont want to fail.. but if i pass the exam, i need to think about the engagement yadi yada bla bla~

sigh!~

that's all for now.

will continue later, insyaAllah

love,

me