Monday blues.

maybe it's more to weekend blues, lead to monday blue..

he left me,

not officially left me,

but silent do kills.

kills me,

my heart,

my feeling.

it kills me, and as much i want him to know it,

i want him to deserve it,

deserve me not having any feelings for him.

i dont know what is my next path.

i'm still not brave enough to let him know,

letting my heart know that my brain currently hate to think about him,

refuse to think of him.




mean while,

i'll do subs,

looking at phone a little while,
still hoping that light will come,

but i guess not,
maybe not tonight
maybe not this time..



i listen to this,

 while looking at the meaning..

try to relate with my situation,
then allow myself to cry a river tonight,
last time.

 and end the day while looking at him,
dreaming and hoping,
everything will be just fine,


and,
i'll be fine too.


thank you.