it's not the end, but a beginning

*sigh*

how i end up spending my weekend with tears, google-ing and updating myself and end up crying once again.

there u go! all my long list of plan to study ... end up being just a plan.

sorry dear myself, how depressed and sad u have been..

this weekend really feels like a long weekend.

the most shocking news..not that shocking coz deep down u already can guess it...but still..

hearing this news did tear your heart, making your world goes upside down..

and make u cry..a lot...and you dont even realize that u've been crying...up from 8pm till 2 am in the morning..

dear me...

u know how stupid urself can be...

but still...u let urself be like this...

coz deep down..crying is one way to punish yourself..

to love them very much till ur heart ache...

till u feel hard to breath..

while they dont even know u're there...

dear me...

please...keep this in mind..

no matter how much you love them..

u are not a part of their world..

since only one know exactly what happened in his own body...

believe them...keep on believing..and supporting..

each one of them...

coz at least..that what u can do...

rather than spending the nights ..

soak urself in tears..

coz u juz need to believe them..

and always keep the faith..

coz they,.remind you..how you really wish to be different,,

how hard u cn try to achieve ur dream..

and how comforting they said..

when it's ok for not being in the path that u want rite now..

as long as u try harder to achieve ur dream..

dear me, remember...that u have responsibilities too..

AKTF