remembering the past,
what i am doing here, in this moment.
people change, yes they did.
but how can someone regret it?
reading my friend blogs didnt really make me feel relief because i end up getting messed up, in me..
well, good for her, she found herself,like what she is doing right now.
but what bout me??
i have dreams, lots of them. but none can happene, not anymore.
why? because i am in this path, medicine path.
yes, i will try to like it, try to live in it, but i cant lie to myself.
yes, i am a hypocrite. i knew that already.
since i get into this path, my hypocriticity tnd to increase, and i know why.
how can i be happy in this field? telling those that love this field that i dont even want to be here.
yes, it already predestined by GOD. i understand that, bu my mind, and my heart kept wandering, asking questions, and i, end up asking myself again, and again.
OH GOD, the road you chose me to ride is so difficult, not difficult for me to try to ride, but hard for me to understand. yes, all that i need to know might not be answered right away,but this heart of mine, keep pushing me,asking me to made up my mind.
i agree with this road, i'll try to keep on walking into this journey YOU give me,
but please, let this be the correct one,
i dont want to be among those who regret.
ameen.
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